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Saturday, January 19th, 2008
2:05 am	IC: The Devil In Me The razor's edge is sharper now than it has ever been.  Before it was clear, obvious and painful when I cut myself sliding into the Devil's grasp.  Now I cannot tell a wound for weeks after it slices.  I know my place is where few are and none truly belong, here in this oubliette of a domain.  But I feel as though I am not doing what must be done.  The reparations that the clan needs done start with Victor.  We need his negative standing cleared before we can move forward, yet after that a change in the council seat must be made.  I was along the same mindset as Leroy for awhile but that will not get the domain where it needs to be.  The problem comes in who takes it. Crim is a cartoon character on the surface with so much hidden below, however it's the surface that the council will see.  So that wont be a progression but stagnation.  Chuck is an outright no due to too many people remembering him as an ineffective sheriff and a puppet.  Leroy has the experience but he is Winni's whipping boy which makes all the more foul of what he will have to do to her in the end, and makes him a non-candidate.  Annie is an unknown and could shake things up but at the same time that will be a double edged blade since she will be dealing with a very wary council.  Mal shouldn't hold any position ever.  Ever.  That leaves me and as I was taught the place for my kind is not at the helm unless it is required.  Well, I guess it's about that time.  Timothy, I hope your training will help and your advise won't end soon.  I'm going to need it. On a somewhat related note the events leading to Victor's status being marred is standard politics and really for the best.  As much as I dislike Winni and feel her little coterie should burn for other reasons this is such a non issue for me that I tire of the facade of giving a damn.  Protecting Victor from natural selection filtering him out of anything that matters really shouldn't be my concern.  The best interests of the overall of our city requires his departure from his "office" and the installation of someone competent.  Sadly, until Annie gets more well known that's me.  After she becomes a familiar face I'll drop it to her and return to my corner away from the spotlight.  This all would be so much easier if Victor was acting his age... Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Nothing but a roaring fire (Comment on this)
Friday, January 18th, 2008
11:06 pm	OOC:The Process As It Relates To Quinn As I mentioned in the last entry there is a method to my madness.  I'm going to give the breakdown for Quinn and it will potentially give insights unknown beforehand so read at your own risk and be responsible! 1.  Overall Ideal: Redemption          -I've always had a lot of fun playing the broken and downtrodden looking for that guiding light but this is really one of the first wholly bad individuals I've played who wants to be something better.  Also I will mention this is the 4th incarnation of my baby character.  I have no trouble admitting that and if people see it than good for them.  Every time I have used a different ideal and they have been wholly different people.  This is the first time this concept has really been a "vampire" concept.  The first two belonged in a Werewolf:the Apocalypse or Hunter:the Reckoning game and the 3rd was very much a Mage:the Awakening concept.  So far it's been a much different experience for me to be playing. 2.  Where/When is he from? Texas during the Civil War, back when it really was the Lone Star State.  He is a cowboy, pure and simple.  What events shaped his mindset toward seeking redemption?  He was an outsider embraced on the wrong side of the fence and has committed atrocities against man and vampire kind.  The Sabbat are fucked up in a whole and complete way.  This is a piece of the original Charlie background that I never really heavily explored and I see plenty of untouched story there.  When I say he is a bad man, I reeeeeeally mean it. 3.  This time around the background came before the sheet.  I don't think I need to post it but there are some interesting points to it that may make me post it up.  I left a great deal of holes to fill for potential story hooks I had yet to think of.  So it' was only a cursory account of his story so far. 4.  The sheet build was easy to chunk out and has a high amount of willpower as was needed to break away from the Sabbat.  Several of his abilities reflect the era he lived in but there are a few that are more representative of bits of learning through the years. 5.  As I am familiar with what I was attempting it didn't take much revision to accomplish a fluid character. 6.  Costuming was decidedly easy and although not as creative as I have been in the past it suited the utilitarian outfit any vampire should wear to lend with modern society.  No spurs on his boot, hell they aren't even cowboy style.  No long coat, why bother since he doesn't ride a horse everywhere anymore.  It's sort of a dress down "t-shirt friday" feel. Soundtrack: 1. "The Reaping" by Coheed & Cambria -- This song worked so well with it's beautiful melodic intro and haunting sound making it perfect for the intro to an album.  Lyrically it's one of the two songs that inspired me to build the Redemption concept. 2. "Butterflies & Hurricanes" by Muse -- The lyrics were so perfect for the theme of the character.  From the first lyrics " Change everything you are/And everything you were" to a few lines later: " Revenge will surely come/Your hard times are ahead" it just seemed to fit. 3. "Away From the Sun" by 3 Doors Down -- I've always wanted to have this on a Vampire character soundtrack and it's full of images of remorse for becoming so entrenched in darkness that you fear ever finding your way back into sanity and goodness. 4. "First of Me" by Hoobastank -- Of the three bands that make multiple appearances on this album I have to say there were a lot of Hoobastank songs that worked well.  I chose this one based on the feeling it gave me of "Fuck you, my past allegiance doesn't make me a monster.  I'm better than that." 5. "I Hate Everything About You" by Three Days Grace -- A song that almost completely describes the feelings of the love/hate unwanted blood bond.  The chorus says it all " Only when I stop to think about it/I hate everything about you/Why do I love you?" 6. "Just Like you" by Three Days Grace -- This is all about someone's supposed teacher/mentor/friend/lover (in this case sire) being a horrible monster and the ability to reject their ideals and form your own based on a more peaceful and meaningful existence. 7. "Justice In Murder" by Coheed & Cambria -- Sometimes when you escape the Sabbat it means killing a lot of people...most of your pack in fact...easy to see how this song's lyrics fit into that. 8. "Pieces" by Hoobastank -- I came to a choice when narrowing down the song list to just enough titles to make the perfect length CD it was either this or "Crawling In The Dark" and I realized I didn't have a song about the difficulties in putting one's life back together (like "Pieces") and already had a song about living in the horrors of the Sabbat. 9. "Points Of Authority (Demo Version)" by Linkin Park -- I specifically wanted the demo version since the lyrics are not the same, they are more about being a product of what you're taught and still maintain the lyrics about having someone enjoy doing horrible things to you. 10. "Save Me" by Dave Matthews -- A song about the desire for redemption and it being something you have to earn for yourself and how no one can just hand it to you, even if they want to. 11. "Shine" by Collective Soul -- It's about finding your way back into the light of God.  Quinn is a decently God fearing man who knows he's probably going to Hell and really doesn't want to... 12. "Sweet Dreams" by Marilyn Manson -- Honestly this is only on here for the feel of the song.  The lyrics could have some sort of reference to the character but whenever I hear this I just think of the Sabbat for some reason. 13. "The Undertaker" by Puscifer -- This song inspired me to make the soundtrack.  I wasn't sure when I would make one but while driving one day and listening to Puscifer I was thinking about my character and this song came up and it's a perfect tribute of Quinn's views of his old life, his sire and everything he once was.  This song defines the character. 14. "Until The End" by Breaking Benjamin -- Perfect for the battles against his former allies and how he will never give up his struggle against them. I promise next post will be IC Current Music: "Save Me" by Dave Matthews (Comment on this)
10:36 pm	OOC: Ground Rules So it's been awhile since I posted to this journal and with good reason.  I have not had a character with which I wanted to keep public In-Character thoughts with.  This time I'm going to be an open book, so if you read this it is up to you as a player to be responsible enough to keep the dividing line between what I have and have not told you In-Character.  With that said there are a few things I want to say before getting to the meat of this... To let everyone in on how I create characters and what they mean to me I'll give you a brief breakdown on what the usual creation process looks like. 1.  The first thing that I do when developing a new character (after knowing what world I'll be playing in) is to think of a base ideal to found everything on.  This typically comes in the form of a one word summary of emotion or one of the seven deadly sins/heavenly virtues.  For example there was the original Charlie, created for CAST, whom I based on Justice.  Everything he did in some way reflected that ideal, it was what he tried to live for and through his successes and failures managed to hold onto that pretty well.  In the incarnation I used of him Lshoan Harah 1.0 I changed his base ideal to Loyalty and completely rewrote his background keeping only minor elements of the original, so justice was still a part of him but very minor and insignificant in regards to Loyalty (which eventually caused him to break apart his clan to go on a fool errand to "save" his brother from the Setites...even though his brother was one).  For those that saw Bluegrass in Mage: the Awakening (Charlie's 3rd incarnation) his base concept was in Hope even against impossible odds. 2.  Once I have a core belief in place I think of what kind of person would best represent the ideals that I have set as a backbone.  Where are they from? When were they born? What specific events shaped this mindset? All of these get answered before I really write a background because in them I find the spine of the background.  Much like organic evolution my writing tends to grow in what I see as logical progression. 3.  This is when I see if a sheet or a background would make more sense to follow step 2.  The answers from above will typically lead to a full bodied background but once in awhile it lends more to mechanical aspects which results in a sheet build first. 4.  Whichever is not selected from step 3 becomes step 4. 5.  Revise everything and make sure it all makes sense with itself.  Sometimes when I get to this step I may have lost sight of some of the original ideals and need to make sure that I still know where everything fits into place. 6.  Costuming comes last.  But that makes it no less important than any other step.  If I don't look the part I can't do the concept the justice it deserves.  Sadly I don't own many costumes but my collection slowly grows  :) ** There is a step that isn't so much a step as random chance inspiration.  At some time during the course of writing or playing a character I will create at least one soundtrack which sometimes is a larger help than even getting the chance to play the character for a couple games. So, next installment will actually have to do with the character and not just my processes. Current Music: "Pieces" by Hoobastank (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 3rd, 2005
1:58 am	Walking the Path These are Charlie's travels while he's away from court for the next few months or years. There will be an update every two weeks. ( Part 1: Chicago ) (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 29th, 2005
5:56 pm	For the first time in a long time someone I was beginning to consider a friend died. My thoughts have begun to shift since his passing. I always understood the futility of my goal but now I think it's reshaping. Too much has happened for it to stay stagnant any longer and Matthew's death has set the final modification in motion. I wanted to rid the world of our kind, to kill every last vampire. It would enable mankind to live on it's own without any string-pulling, shadow-cloaked figures. I knew it to be impossible which is why I allowed myself to befriend Ivan and Kathryn, at least they're still good people. Now I've begun to become close to a few of New Havens courtiers and with the loss of one I realize that even the most cold vampire can become more. Sometimes they follow a path but still within a few of those lies the core values of humanity. I need to learn to help people rekindle their lost self, through that the ideal world can be created. Instead of pulling strings of mortals they can learn to help the kine create a more utopian society. Granted the Masquerade must still be in place or even the most well intentioned vampire will be hunted down and destroyed. The first step in creating a world with more humane vampires is the same as the first step in what the goal once was, kill the Sabbat. Every last vile spawn who claims to be one of "Caine's Chosen" will be destroyed. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 20th, 2005
3:37 pm	I think I had it wrong before. I don't need to put down my firearms to achieve the world I would like to live in. I just don't need to actively look for things to kill anymore. The world is a rather large place and the best thing for me would be to focus on where I am, not go looking for places in trouble. I was in the middle of a warzone before going to Chicago and entering into another war in progress. I should have stayed in Jerusalem and finished things there. It would have taken centuries but I should have stayed. The same thing happened in Chicago, just as we had entered into the final stages of removing the Sabbat completely I left for New Haven. I can't leave here. This area, the Bay Area, is my home. I may spend weeks at a time outside the domain but I will always return here. I will always come back to where I became Charlie. (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 12th, 2005
3:33 pm	There's more to it then this. There has to be more then just waking up each night to go out and fight the enemy or training each other night to do so. I've learned so much from Kathryn but I fear she's at her limit as to what she can teach me about our lot in unlife. I need to find another teacher to help me learn the last few pieces to the Brujah puzzle. Though, I do believe that my grandsire can still teach me about our existance as a whole. The Who's, What's and Why's of Kindred kind have grabbed my attention. Damn that little book. This is all because of that Ventrue assembled research. One ragged old book has made me want to put my gun down and look back on the entirety of it all. One more war to fight and then hopefully I can begin my search. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
4:21 pm	I don't think Catonelli is ever going to understand... (7 Comments |Comment on this)
3:11 am	Three paths, one family. A house divided by ideology. I walk a path once lonesome but gaining in numbers. Two in New Haven are along the same path, or at least it seems so. (Comment on this)
Sunday, April 17th, 2005
4:40 pm	She's gone away now. Hopefully Ivan can be a better teacher then I can be while in the hell hole of New Haven. Chicago is calmer by comparison and she'll have more time to be taught the right way. I can teach her how to hunt and kill, that is far from right... On a related note, I have a couple uses of the right of progeny now at my disposal and I dont think i'll ever use them. Once was enough of a mistake. (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 9th, 2005
1:24 pm	That old feeling It's like I'm back in the thick of it at home. Except this time around I lack the strength of support I once had. Even if I had full court backing it wouldn't equal how much there was. Worse still the bastards in Oakland are more powerful then the ones we were fighting. The chances of coming out of this entire thing alive are slim to none but at the very least our deaths wont be for a few years still. Maybe in that time we'll recieve some sort of much needed help. I guess with all of us simultaniously fighting Scipio, and just Scipio alone, we could win with minimal losses. But that would involve a totally united effort. Not gonna happen. Too many innocents or I would say carpet bomb Oakland and play it off as a terrorist action. (Comment on this)
Monday, April 4th, 2005
1:21 am	04-03-05 Things are becoming the way they always do. The war for superiority has been fired up in New Haven; a war for which side is right yet neither are. One is too wrapped up in their pomp and circumstance to realise the world can be made a better place if we just try to help the people who need it most. That would require them letting go of their self serving compultions and desire for power over all things. Then I look at the other side and I am thankful that at the very least the side im on isnt full of complete monsters who willfully kill everyone they want to in some deranged ideal of Darwinian superiority. I hate the Camarilla, but by God I hate the Sabbat so much more for their crimes against humanity. I guess the only reason I stay a member is at least here I can kill the Sabbat and eventually I'll have the lesser of two evils to deal with. That evil includes the nonsense of court though. I fail to see why it happens so often in New Haven. Most places only deal with it on a yearly or even farther spread basis. I guess its the easiest place to know who your internal enemies are. On a related note I only threatened the lives of the entirety of New Haven's Tremere population once last night. (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 2nd, 2005
12:39 am	Note to Self: Next time verbalize that the man was an Archon for 200 or so years. That said I think it went well. Not as good as I would have hoped but it went well. I can't thank my brother enough, I think sometime in the next 6 months I need to make sure to spend a lot of time helping him out there. We started the ball rolling in Chicago but I think he might still need some help. He is just one vampire...one really old vampire...I can always pretend he could use my help...nevermind... (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 31st, 2005
12:07 am	Sometimes I forget that there are people in this world I can trust as family. Thank you Chance. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 26th, 2005
12:49 pm	I swear I'm the one who keeps telling people to not go into Oakland and yet here I sit in a car, riding to the heart of darkness. Justice will be done by my hand even at the cost of my own existance. Current Mood: calm Current Music: "Follow" by Breaking Benjamin (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 23rd, 2005
2:38 pm	Why is it everytime I seem to be returning to a humane position in unlife something happens and people need to die? All of the killing that surrounds life brings us down to a point where we bury ourselves in blood and bodies until there is no more chance of seeing who we once were. The Sabbat aren't humane though. Killing them isn't the same, is it? I can't tell anymore. (Comment on this)
1:18 pm	OOC: New Soundtrack As he's reached a new point in his life Charlie gets a new soundtrack to coincide. There was supposed to be one made a little while back but i could only come up with 4 tracks and it just didnt fit for very long. The Demon hunting stuff has taken a little more of a backburner since then. If it ever comes up into prominence agin I might just have to make the Demon Hunter soundtrack. For now I give you: Charlie Pierce: Personal War 1. "Laura Palmer's Theme" by Angelo Badalamenti, Twin Peaks Soundtrack 2. ( Gravedigger by Dave Matthews, Some Devil ) 3. ( Haunted by Poe, Haunted ) 4. ( I Don't Care Anymore by From Zero, My So Called Life ) 5. ( Bad Religion by Godsmack, Godsmack ) 6. ( Ugly by The Exies, Head For The Door ) 7. ( Follow by Breaking Benjamin, We Are Not Alone ) 8. ( The Remembrance Ballad by Atreyu, The Curse ) 9. ( Myself by From Zero, My So Called Life ) 10. ( Duck And Run by 3 Doors Down, The Better Life ) 11. ( Don't Let It Bring You Down by Annie Lennox, Medusa ) 12. ( Rain by Breaking Benjamin, We Are Not Alone ) 13. "Forever" by Queen, A Kind Of Magic Current Music: "Ugly" by the Exies (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 10th, 2005
3:46 pm	I still know my way of doing some things is due to their brainwashing. I wish I could get past it for the sake of all those around me that I don't want to see hurt. (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 5th, 2005
12:45 pm	"Dead man lyin' by the side of the road With the daylight in his eyes" Some say you can't truely tell a man's worth until after he dies. Because then the efforts he made in life can be evaluated as one all encompassing play, from start to finish. All a man can ever really do then, is try. He'll never know if he succeeded. William led a good life punctuated by a close kinship with the law. He followed it, enforced it and still maintained a gentle hand when it was needed of him. His friends were willing to die for him as he was for them. Eventually they all did so, in the upholding of laws they were so close to. He didn't even enjoy his last sunrise, thinking he would live to see another. If he were alive today I'm sure he would enjoy every sunrise that came his way. One day I hope I can be as impactful as He was and bring such a positivity to such a dark world. Current Music: "Don't Let It Bring You Down" by Annie Lennox (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 27th, 2005
4:55 pm	So far two people in New Haven have thought me to be John. How many times do I have to tell them that he died in Glenwood Springs back in late '87? Of course too many movies have given the impression that everyone from the old west who happens to have consumption problems must be a bad dentist with a penchant for firearms. Hell the man couldn't even shoot very accurately. He had speed though, I wont deny him that. Maybe I should claim to be him just to get people to leave me alone about it. It's funny though, one day someone will actually look up my name on the internet and actually find something. 'Course then people will think I'm a criminal, maybe the Doolin-Dalton gang was a bad place to get a name from. Well...at the time it had it's purpose. Hopefully I don't ever need to get another name. I think it's time to leave this train of thought behind and focus on the task at hand. I've got a team to assemble and some Sabbat to kill. Maybe I'll get lucky and find one of them I know, someone who deserves death even more then the others... (Comment on this)